One side says your mother tongue is rusty. The other side asks where you're 'really' from. It can feel like you belong everywhere on paper and nowhere in real life.
Here's a reframe: you're not half of two things. You're the whole of a new thing. Diaspora is its own culture, with its own food, slang and group chats.
Find your people who get both sides. They're out there, also eating jollof from a Tupperware that used to hold ice cream.